blue pill versus blue pill

i don’t sleep so good…

…between being a gemini, and worrying about money, and my car, and whether my grandmother’s house will sell on time to get the car replaced before it dies and i lose my job, and getting my house clean, and all the black & swirly drama in my world when i crawl into bed and it’s all dark and quiet my mind will NOT turn off, er go i can NOT fall asleep…without a little help from my friends – and in this case the role of “my friends” was always played by “tylenol pm”.

i know it’s bad for my liver – like all the tequila and whiskey is good for it. but i have to do SOMETHING or i don’t sleep. period. i’ll sleep in one to two hour bursts for a couple of weeks until sleep-deprived dementia kicks in and i bite the bullet and get more tylenol pm’s…recently switching to excedrine pm ‘because they have 38mg of “diphehydramine” versus the 25mg in tylenol pm, and with 50% more of the “good stuff” AND it doesn’t have the liver slaughtering effect of the latter it was a no brainer.

plus, sadly, i had recently had to take three of the liver killers just to sleep through the night, so taking only two of the others made more sense anyway.

but i ran out and had to do a store run last night, which is where i noticed something i never caught before – there was also a “just for sleep pill” (i had always avoided these ’cause they typically cost more) that was cheap AND had a different “sleep aid” ingredient – “doxylamine succinate” instead of “diphehydramine”, was the size of a tick-tac, and said dosage was just ONE tablet instead of two. i bought it figuring if it didn’t work i’d take it back today…

…yeah, “didn’t work” my ass.

i took one at nine pm – by 10:30 i could barely get off the couch. made it to bed, crawled in, and then woke up to pee…at 5am. back out the second i re-hit the mattress and crawling ever since. curious to see how tomorrow morning goes when there’s no rush to get up – but for now i gotta get to work. if sleeping is the hurdle for you that it is for me, though, try that “doxylamine succinate” shit…kicks everything else in the teeth!

(it should be noted i haven’t googled any of this medical shit and have no idea what side effects or what not are involved…but i DO know the side effects for me, personally, when i can’t sleep worth a shit, and figure it works out better for me to avoid those at all costs!)