countdown to extinction?

so, tomorrow i turn fifty-four…

…and my mom died at fifty-five.

so what if i only have a year left?

my mom caught the “big c” at fifty in the form of breast cancer. one mastectomy and one failed implant later she was fine…for about six months. then she said they saw what was (back then) referred as “hot spots” on a scan (probable cancer) and sure enough, bone cancer in her hip and lower back, which used her nervous system like interstates to hit pretty much everything else, causing massive organ failure (including cardiac arrest) at fifty-five.

i’ve had pain in my leg and hip for years from the gym…or is it? what if i only have one year left? time to live like that’s all i got, i suppose…