battling the blue monkey

well hell, i tried…

…and i failed.

and for now, i’m cool with that.

ladies and gentlemen, let’s welcome the return of the blue monkey to my back!

as mentioned as number six in a previous entry (and alluded to in another) i had a bit of an addiction to tylenol pm (or to be more honest, it’s half the cost generic equivalent). i don’t like addictions – i see them as a form of weakness, so i tried to kick this habit the old fashioned way…

…transference.

take your addiction and, like a rifle, aim it at SOMETHING else. plenty of people do this – get off the drugs, turn to booze. get off the booze, and obsess on something else like a hobby or their kids or spouse or something. i had a two-pronged issue – needed to transfer the addiction so something else, and still needed to get a good night’s sleep.

at first i tried booze, but my natural irish genes kicked in and due to my tolerance levels this was just TOO fucking pricey. suggestions came from other parts of my peer group – one not being very conducive to my taking a pre-employment drug screening should one be needed (weed), and another (who didn’t like the aforementioned due to said product being illegal in this state) involving narcotics THEY were prescribed (not realizing that me being in possession of those WITHOUT a prescription was actually a harsher crime, i suppose).

all just to turn my brain off so i could sleep.

(and no, shane, counting backwards from 300 doesn’t work on the gemini brain the way you figured it might)

well, i tried both – but again, cost and availability play in (notice my first thought doesn’t even weigh in that whole “legal” issue) and i realized if you’re gonna be addicted to SOMETHING to help you sleep, it might as well be cheap, legal, and easy to get your hands on – so i went and got another bottle of the tylenol pm last night and slept like a fuckin’ brick.

if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it, right?

so, welcome back, blue monkey – “non-habit-forming” my ass! the two or three nights i DID try it unaided i only slept two hours a night! fuck all that!