back to the future! kinda? sorta? no, not really…

i think i’m breaking out of my summer-long funk…

…sorta.

money’s still a major issue. for those of you wondering why i just don’t come around like i used to it’s because i’m broke. way broke. and making matters worse is the apparent fact that all kinds of stuff needs to be replaced on a bmw at around 100,000 miles – or so i’m being told. particularly if it’s kept in a hot climate. shane’s had over 175,000 when he got it so most of that stuff had probably been handled. mine was sitting at only about half that, so i get to deal with it myself. it’s all smaller stuff (i.e. parts and labor is less than $250 on any repair thus far, mainly ’cause i do the labor) but when funds are tight that chokes you out, ya know? but pusing aside that and things aren’t bad…

…which if money is your only worry that’s not too bad, i’m realizing.

sure, i’m lonely and terminally single – but long ago i accepted the fact this was just kinda the way it was. i’ll flirt. i’ll have plently of “first date / last date” scenarios. but something on the long term? being broke AND not having the conventional weekend free kinda guarantees that ain’t happening anytime soon.

so it goes.

but i’m finally starting to get sick of my place looking like a flop house (every now and again you have to keep in mind that my parents came of age in the 1950’s, and i hung out with them predominantly as a kid, so some of the expressions in my lexicon tend to be a bit out dated) so i’m cleaning, and one of the things that was discovered (and subsequently disposed of) was my first internet-era computer, although i pulled the hard drive before i did.

why?

not for security purposes – there’s no banking or financial info on it. hell, when i had this thing it was during a period where i didn’t have a bank account. no, this was strictly just “intellectual curiosity” as kramer always puts it…but more literally, to see what pics are on there. i know there are none of me; this was also during my “no pictures” phase, which lasted from the late 1980’s until probably about 2005 or so (alex and les were both HUGE pic people, so les might have some of me back in 2003, but alex i was able to distract my saying, “no, let me get a pic of YOU in front of…” whatever touristy shit we were doing. always worked. gotta know how to work the ego, ya know? ironically, it was when i got tired of working the ego that the relationship finally faltered).

no, this will just be for snapshot purposes – see what kind of pics and what-not i used to download ’cause i thought it was cool. or what kind of girl back then would send me pics. some of the early online dating folk became legendary amongst my peer group. les came from there. so did kimberly, the porn star in training (technically she and i never dated, but she was a fairly constant fixture for the summer of 2002, as les was for the summer of 2003, with ME peppered in there from winter of 2001 to summer of 2004). hell, it was ’cause of this era of online dating we got shane in the picture (although it should quickly be noted that was due to a girl i met knowing his girlfriend, not any direct connection on that one).

so kramer claims to have a cable that will allow me to hook this drive up via usb and check some shit out – we’ll have to see if this thing functions and, if so, what’s on it. could be interesting. could be scary. i know this computer pre-dated my iMac, which i got in fall of 2001, so this could be an interesting glimpse into the pre-whore time of the late 1990’s to early 2000’s. i’ll keep you posted, no matter how embarassing…