crunch time or crash and burn time?

this one could be interesting or depressing…

or possibly a mixture of both.

the first of this is being written where it all began…sorta. on kramer’s old powerbook g4, like i used to write a bunch of the early ones on, and in kramer’s living room…it’s just a much nicer living room, and a bit further south than south austin – more like south side san antonio. where people KNOW what picante sauce is supposed to taste like, and on this side of town what handgun goes with what outfit when you head out at night.

but never mind that now.

here’s my situation – in the last ten days i’ve lost my “relationship” with the non-girlfriend (won’t go into all the details on that, but it stings like hell), my notebook, and as a result my entire digital music library, which was up to about four DAYS of music.

in the next thirty days there’s a decent possibility that i’ll lose my house AND my job – neither of them voluntarily. so, i’ll set this to post in about thirty days or so, and i’ll update after this paragraph to let you know how it all worked out…or didn’t. and of course if there’s nothing following this paragraph, then you know things went REALLY shitty…

so now i’m torn…

which is better? to have the hammer drop or be in perpetual limbo? here’s the update in order of apperance above…

relationship still down for the count if not out (at least in the way i wanted it to be, if it were ever even there in the first place) although i have spent an inordinant amount of time working on her new house for zero sexual favors or monetary reimbursement (with promises of the latter and occasionaly hints at the former). what the fuck is my problem? let’s just say love makes you do stupid shit…

notebooks still dead, although apparently for around twenty bucks i can get a little caddy that will turn the hard drive into a USB drive and therefore still have access to everything on it. have to look into that when i have a moment.

work is still slow as hell (keep in mind the first half of this was written before the big public economic crash, although those of us who depend on businesses spending money with us felt it long before in our paychecks) but i still have a job…for now. from what i’ve heard that could change by the time you’re out trick-or-treating.

as for the house they’re supposedly “working with me” on “modifying my loan”. but i haven’t heard anything since i got the call two weeks ago saying they could do so but it would take two weeks. in theory this works. in theory COMMUNISM works. we’ll see how it all balances out, i suppose…

you know what depressed me more than all the above or the pathetic number on wells fargo’s website? the fact that this is the LAST entry i had scheduled so now i’m running live…